So whether you know me or not, I always keep it real. Lately since I have been out of work from a lay off and currently waiting on surgery next month, I have been doing some hardcore thinking. It first started off as anxiety talking really loud with a megaphone and then my rational side started to add her input and I think I hit somewhat of that “sweet spot”.

So the first topic of discussion between these two …. my anxiety and rational side…. let’s talk about my unhealthy connection with my comfort zone. As an awkward, overweight child into the earlier years of adulthood I stayed nice & safe in my walls called my comfort zone. It was easier to stay in those walls because I would limit my exposure to being hurt or not feeling good enough. Get this for those who know me – I used to be so quiet & introverted. Again, it was a safer place to be. Lonely but albeit safe.

Even though I am more outgoing now I tend to allow thaat “anxiety” side revert me back to that lovely comfort zone in my life. But I’ve thought about it – what am I afraid of ? Being hurt ? Failure ? I’m realizing what’s the worse that can happen ? It doesn’t workout – I get hurt. I will eventually heal and move forward. I fail ? Yep, it will happen but it is not true failure unless I don’t get back up again and try. OR GET THIS !!!! READY ?? MAYBE just MAYBE I might succeed or make it work. Maybe through my actions or journey, I will be able to inspire just one person and it would be worth it all.

So……today as I looked out over the HUGE big gym from my bike workout and these thoughts came to my mind:

📌 Gym Intimidation A few years ago you would never catch me at a big huge gym like this. Intimidated and scared would be two ways of describing my how I would feel. Yet I was out there rocking it on the turf where people can see me from every angle (and my friend actually saw me & complimented me in my workout- EEK people saw me & cheered me on )

📌 Fear of Heights – yep I gave a MAJOR FEAR of heights. But today as I was on the 2nd floor cardio space – I took the bike that was closest to the plexiglass wall overlooking the workout field below. Finding out I love the view.

📌 OH NOT NOT MEN ! Workout in front of cute guys 🏋️‍♂️ – well hello there looking down at my sneakers was my MO !!!! It was “Oh Look a Guy – let me look down and check out my sneakers for the millionth time”. Well NOT ANYMORE – I already know what sneakers I’m wearing so why am I looking down at them. Today I made conversation & exchanged hellos and smiles. I’m at the gym to workout and get healthy but who know what God has in store – maybe my future man 🏋️‍♂️ either way I’m enjoying the experience…. just saying

See truth is we all have a story of our lives. The good, the bad and all that falls in-between. Some good days and some bad days. See I get it, no ones life is perfect. Get to know people and their stories. Embrace them. Love on them. We are all fighting battles everyday. Eventually we find our tribe. So here is the place where I will be sharing my story…. the good, the bad and all the beautiful things that fall in between.

XOXOX Di

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